WOW!
So it's Christmas weekend and I haven't written on here since like August...pathetic I know. Anyway, I dropped by my friend's blog and it was so cute and funny and made me feel like I talked to her everyday (when sadly, I don't) but I really need to get back to blogging. I miss it. I like being able to ramble. No one in my family really listens to me on a regular basis so this is the next best thing. And it's pretty darn good. Sadly, not too much has happened. So I'm going to do a monthly review.
September: My birthday was on the 3rd, kind of sad. Got cards from my wonderful husband, kids and MIL but no one else.
October: My grandpa passed away and it was hard to deal with because it's my paternal grandpa and I don't talk to my dad. So I had to physically see him on the 14th. So, because of that my mom got really angry with me and we didn't speak for awhile. When we finally did, it wasn't so good (and I, personally, think it hasn't been the same since.) My baby boy Kameron was due on the 18th. God, it's been hard to deal with the realization that he's not here and he should be. It's a daily struggle.
December: My kids are soooo spoiled. Tons and Tons of Christmas presents. I'm kind of mad about Christmas though. We decided to not spend the night at my mom's (TONS of different reasons) but anyway, she decided that coming over as soon as we woke up on Christmas morning just wasn't good enough. So she asked me if she could pick up the kids the day before Christmas Eve. I, of course trying to keep the drama at bay, said "sure". But when she came and picked up the kids she was saying "Oh Josh (my brother that isn't speaking to me), is waiting on a phone call from a guy that he works with to call and he's going to come over dressed as Santa Claus." Did I mention that she didn't invite Brian and I? And When I asked her if she just wanted us to drive up so she didn't have to pick up the kids she said "no, that's okay, I just want to spend time with my grandkids." I hate hate hate arguing with my family. But I also hate feeling this way. I'm hurt and irritated and angry. I feel like I'm alienated from my family. Christmas was SO awkward. Sitting in her family room with Josh on the couch not looking at me or speaking to me. It's stupid. If things aren't better by next year, I'm just not going. Christmas is a season of love and family, not the season to argue and fight and ignore each other.
My kids had a lovely Christmas. I guess nothing else really matters other than that!
