Time, why do I never have enough?

Really?!?! I never seem to have enough time or strength or energy to do anything that I want to get done. And it seems that something I can't control always happens or gets in my way.

Summertime

Brian's birthday celebration went great. It was a little embarrassing telling people that he found out because he checked my email. It made it sound like he's crazy obsessive. Which, of course, he's not. He just knew something was going on and decided to take a little peek.

I'm fighting a yucky summer cold. I hope it passes quickly and without much of the runny nose and watery eyes.

We've got an "end of summer bash" to go to on Saturday. I'm so excited. I won't have either kid, we're spending the night so I don't have to worry about driving all the way home from somewhere I've only been once. I hate to drive anymore. It's weird but ever since I've become a stay at home mom, I really don't like it.

I've got a lot to do today, so I shouldn't really be on the computer updating my blog but hey, I'm taking a sick day. (Kids are still here so it doesn't really count as a sick day but I'm planning on just hanging out on the couch.)

I start watching Baby Sarah on Thursday. YAY! I think it'll somehow help me to have another baby around. I still miss Kameron. Even though I didn't have him and he was never here for me to take care of, it's the planning to take care of him and getting used to the idea of having a third baby and then having it taken away from you. I'm dreading October. On the bright side, I've been contemplating wether or not I believe in God and if I do, what is the reason he took my baby away? If I don't, then it was just a scientific/ biological thing. So it's a catch 22, if I believe in God I'm so mad at him. I love you Kameron. If there is a heaven I know you're there along with Sarah. It's hard to believe it's been a year since we lost her. The world is less bright without her here.

Revamping and birthdays

I've been doing a little blog remodel. I can't seem to find a background I am in love with. So, I settled. I'm not usually a settler but today is the exception. See, I shouldn't even really be on here. I should be up and cleaning my house or baking a cake. Tonight is Brian's birthday dinner. Yummy stuffed pork tenderloin, corn on the cob, home made mashed potatoes with cheddar cheese, red lobster style biscuits. mmmm.....plus birthday cake. How could life get any better? I'll tell you how. If I could keep my house clean. I feel like I do the same thing every single day. Pick up the same toys. Put away the same couch throw pillows and fix the same food for breakfast and lunch wash the same dishes. Any tips on how to break up the monotony of my day would be greatly appreciated!!!

Weekly recap....(i need to just post more often, i know)

Weekly recap.....

It's shark week.

We need to do our fantasy football draft.

Brian's birthday is the 7th. I have to make a dinner for him on the 6th because Malakai won't be here this weekend :( I miss my little boy every minute he's not with me. But his happiness is WAY more important that mine. We're going to Rick's for Brian's birthday friday night. Josie is spending the night with my mom. :( My house feels so empty without them. I'll get up bright and early Saturday morning to go get my little pumpkin.

The rest of the week went like this. Cleaning, cooking, change diaper, eat, bath, nap, let out dog. REPEAT